I am so truly happy

It is hard to explain it and my "confessions" post may have you thinking otherwise. See, I am so happy in life right now that I am not craving anything else to "complete" me. Sometimes (like the day I posted that) i think deeply and reflect over things way too much. 

I have a real sense of contentment that is so grounding. 

I just wanted to share. :D

The time change

I HATE when the time changes, but I love this one once I get adjusted. However, can we just leave it please? I hate the adjustment period.

I worked all weekend and I am overly tired today. Seriously. Feel like I could sleep another few hours, but I won't. 

Troy's little friend Ghavin is in the hospital with pneumonia. They just decided to transfer him out to Cooks. That is not good. That means he is getting worse. Poor little guy, and poor his parents. That is so scary. We need to pray for him. If you have seen my MySpace pictures, you see many of Ghavin there, all the way from when they were 1 until now. Actually, before they were one. Ghavin's dad calls them "Poncho & Lefty" because Ghavin's Dad is hispanic and Troy is white. It's so cute. He's really the only friend Troy has his age.

Well, I have homework to get done and things to sell on Ebay. Talk at y'all later. :D

Today my baby girl is ELEVEN

I can't believe it has been 11 years already. She is gonna be grown before I know it. I am so blessed to have her. She is such a joy (if a challenge sometimes). 

Happy Birthday baby girl, you are loved more than you know!!!

So, not much to update you on

But I'll write anyhow. Michaela took the TAKS yesterday and feels really good about it. I hate how that is ALL the school worries about. They teach them to pass this test, not for the love or potential of their learning. 

Still no news on the job in Longview, I am about to give up too. Chris already gave up, but me being the optimist, I tend to hold out longer on everything.

So, now he is looking back in West Texas where he grew up. Found out the oil field is there too. His buddy called last night and told us he knows of TWO houses out on ranches that the owners want lived in (for free) so they don't deteriorate. That would be cool. 

I am just knowing that wherever God wants us, he'll take us, when he is ready for us to be there. My gut tells me "this" is not the place.

Confessions:

• I am a food stasher. I stash food so my family will leave it alone and it will be 'there" when I want it.
• I have become a home-body. I don't really enjoy going places very much unless it is with Chris. I find myself dreading a trip to the store, to the school, or anything else of the sort. Especially at night. I just wanna relax and get ready to sleep.
• I have become a light music lover. I mean instrumental music. I can listen to it while I study and anything else. I downloaded the piano version of "Bella's Lullabye" yesterday and have listened to it 19 times (iTunes keeps count).
• However, I still love my Texas country the most and still listen to it 99% of the time.
• I find myself cold all the time lately. I am getting sick of it, and Chris is getting sick of our heating bill.
• I am procrastinating getting my lumbar puncture because I know it will hurt and I am just not up for it.
• I ate shrimp the other night and broke into hives...this after already knowing I reacted like that before. It was only ONE shrimp. Guess I need to leave them suckers alone.
• I still listen to my 80's hard rock hair bands I was so fond of as a teenager.
• I think I am like that Nadia Sulman chick, I am addicted to having kids. However, that is where my brain kicks in and knows when enough is enough. Sure, I'd LOVE to have 13 kids, but I can't afford them nor could I care for them (or have enough patience for them).
• That being said, I am holding out for grandbabies WAY down the road (though I wouldn't turn down another adoption if it came out way).
• I would love to do an internship with the Duggars and learn how the heck they do it. If they can do it with so many, surely I could learn a better way to do it with so few.
• I will stay in my jammies all day if I have no where to go. Then, at bedtime I bathe and change into a clean pair. LOL
• I miss my Poppa Lloyd so much that everytime I think of him I cry. It seems to be more often lately. I just wish I could have said goodbye.
• I miss my Brody too and still cry over losing him. I think of him so many times daily. It seems like I just lost him yesterday, but feels like it was ages ago at the same time.
• The older I get the more I realize family means. I find myself wanting to get to know ALL my family and be in close contact with them. I wonder about siblings out there my bio father claimed to have fathered...are they out there? Who are they? Do they wonder if I am out there?
• I have an addiction to the internet, and spend way too much time on here daily.
• I love the outdoors but do not want to be out there if it's cold. Give me heat please.
• Spring is my favorite time of year and I always feel a renewed energy at that time.

I guess that is all for now...hasta la vista

Monday Morning, no moaning

I am actually in a really good mood today. I think weekdays are different for me as I don't work during the week, I work weekends. So, I am on the countdown to my working weekend, weekdays don't bother me too much. I relish them. Michaela is at school, Troy calm because it's just he and I (no stimulation), and the house is clean. I finished one class last night, waiting on my final grade. Started a new one today. Let me tell you, this month will be one of pure torture because this class does not interest me in the LEAST! It is "How computers (and the internet) work. Ugh...I got the basics in my last class and that is all I really want to know. I guess I'll be better for the learning, but one more time *ugh*.

Still no news on the job. Waiting ever so un-patiently!

I think T and I will take us a nice nap in a bit. :D

The dinner last night

Was disappointing to say the least. We got there to be told "we are not taking any more names for our wait list tonight, sorry". I realized soon that it was a tactic to get people to go somewhere else. So, I just stood there. And stood there. 45 minutes of standing there looking at the door keeper and he says "oh, I didn't realize you had a baby (Troy), go ahead and come in. Once we were in, we got on the wait list. Another 30 minutes and we got a table. It was on the patio (it's 32 degrees outside) and although they had canvas walls & heat,  the walls ended about an inch from the floor and the air blew in...it was still COLD. But that is okay, at least we were in there. So, our waitress comes over and she throws out a few insults, but that was it, took our drink order and gone. We saw her 3 times. That was it. She brought Mac a hat towards the end of dinner. We had to hunt her down for our check. 

Michaela said she enjoyed it, but I think we could have done something a lot more fun for less. I am going to write the head dogs a letter telling them what we thought, and see if we can right the wrong.